McIntosh Slough

It's the acid; everytime I do it things just seem to smoooth out, like ex-laks.

After the Sugar Shack (bakery) I got drawn into watching some fisherman clean their one salmon. 

I'm puzzled by my inability to "come to terms" with death, MY death, that is. I have, for decades advocated for the right to end one's life when one chose. I'm now struggling with an irrational anxiety that may be able to be alleviated.

Micro-dosing has brought me along, but I feel I'm running out of time. I know myself well enough to realize I sometimes get stuck and a facilitator could be helpful, particularly when partaking of what's called a "heroic" dose.  It's interesting being in a geographic area that has recognized the need and is moving to meet it. There are, at some of the Service Centers, waiting lists.

It was time to find a place to have the conversation with Evelyn, the psilocybin facilitator.

https://elevate-with-evelyn.com/how-does-it-work/

Eventually, I found the McIntosh Slough bridge; its attraction was so strong I considered sleeping under it.

I chose Evelyn for her attitude...mainly these two paragraphs:

My studies have led me to believe that our minds co-evolved with plant medicines and that they are basic human need. They provide our minds with non-toxic, non-addictive chemicals that are essential to self actualization. Unfortunately, many of us in this world have been systemically distanced for over 1000 years from entheogenic use like that of our ancestors.

A consequence of that distance is that many generations of negative thought patterns based on unresolved traumas have been solidified as core beliefs and passed down to us as culture and society. Plant medicines can be used as a tool to break that cycle, and to scrape away the influence of society, culture, your parents, and your trauma while empowering your inner truth to take control of your life.

While many people eshew "help," I've found it to be tremendously beneficial. The results have been unimagined, and that, "unimagined," is key.

It's my experience I don't know what I don't know. By working with others, I've discovered perspectives that were beyond my imaginative capacity. And they've enriched my life in so many ways I spend much of my time cogitating and marveling at the ever-broadening spectrum of layers and concomitant emotions. 

But (sigh), it's true, I'm an inveterate navel-gazer. 

The area was spotless,

obviously a trap for the unwary. 

Facilitators are required to ask several questions. One is: Have you ever had suicidal thoughts or attempted to harm yourself or others?

The use of the word "ever" is, as she acknowledged, problematic since most people have, at one time or another, considered the idea. My answer amounted to "No."

Another question asks if I have any life-threatening conditions. This one resulted in her giving me this website spiritpharmacist.com and encouraged me to ask if imagined exertion such as running, while under the influence, could result in death.

Given the level of my angina, she didn't think she had enough experience to go forward but said she'd talk with a couple of facilitator-doulas and get back to me inna few days. I decided to wait until I've talked with the doulas before paying the pharmacist's $99 consulting fee, but the fact the website exists is, to me, encouraging. After 50+ years of demonization, entheogens are being recognized for their positive effects and a supportive infrastructure is taking shape.

Today, 10.Aug., I had a conversation with a legal assistant with Compassion & Choices. My legal questions were about the facilitator's liability in the event I died. I also wanted to talk to someone about instituting a change to the law that requires a prognosis of death within six months. Being able to predict is something oncologists now offer, but the cardiologists I've talked with have been unwilling to go out on the limb. What then?

Camp - Elliot State Forest

On a different level but similar vein, EXIT International is now helping people take advantage of Switzerland's Aid In Dying program. There, people can obtain a lethal dose of medication pretty much for the asking. All they need is to get there. And helping them is EXIT's latest undertaking (pun intended).

Psilocybin In Oregon

Much of the information in the top article is related to "The Business." But there're (there's for the rest of you) also many leads to other sources of information. 

https://www.wweek.com/news/2022/02/16/these-four-companies-want-to-take-you-on-a-psychedelic-voyage-in-oregon/

The link below is to the Oregon Health Authority, the State's policy formulation and decision-making group.

https://www.oregon.gov/oha/PH/PREVENTIONWELLNESS/Pages/Oregon-Psilocybin-Services.aspx

WAKE UP YOU FUKERZ

At 37:14 Marty Balin screams the blog title. (And, of course, as you know, they never did.)

Prompted by Jean Luc Goddard to play atop a hotel in New York, the Jefferson Airplane let fly.

Suffering a relapse after too much fun at FIBark, I'm languishing, by mySELF no less (so she won't get sick), but taking FULL advantage of her BOSE SoundLink Mini.

Skip to 47:13 when they lift off.

WOW! Colors, maaaaaaaaaaan.


And at 55:17 "The insights that we gained, not just from LSD...."


And have you heard? In May, by ballot, Denver, the Colorado municipality, voted to decriminalize psilocybin. The decision officially places it at the bottom of the list of drug-related crimes and possessors will, supposedly, not be prosecuted. This is in recognition not only of its lack of deleterious effects, but in acknowledgement of its potential for relieving/alleviating symptoms of depression, PTSD and other emotional and mental problems.